Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Just got offline with Cuiling... Haiz... Comunication is an art unto science. It doesn't take one to master. It takes everyone to master it. If she ain't talking, something is wrong then ger... But you... can't just say you are nt bothered. Hmm... yah the rest I told you le. Just chill!

Training today was fun I guess. Well, some matters are keeping the club divided, but I guess it really takes everyone's effort to work things out. I'm not gonna put the blame on anyone. But then again, I guess everyone can do better than just talking crap in their own domains and their circles. Noone needs to understand my reasons for doing things. When I find a need to explain, I will. If not, try somewhere else if you ain't happy. I myself, am giving myself some time to see if I'm still needed. If not needed, then I shall disappear like the magicians' doves in The Prestige. I guess I can make myself useful @ otherplace else. And yep, I've gotten some requests le. =)

To NPTKD, other clubs (if anyone from other clubs sees this, forgive me, but I'm mainly adressing people from my club):

Some of my views about taekwondo. Taekwondo encompasses a lot of aspects, & what I am doing now is the sport aspect of it. I am naturally aggressive in my training methods, tillthe point of being "extreme" as some say. True. I scold a lot, but then I ask myself at nights why I do that. Everynight. Truth is, I can't help but see taekwondo in Singapore going down the drain. I'm not one to go soft, cuz I know the training I dish out, physically or otherwise, is to train everyone. Some are more immune to my scoldings. Good!

I just wish everyone would put in more effort in that 2 hours they are there. 2 hrs later, everyone is free to go home, eat or whatever crap you all want to do. Just 2 hrs of full attention, to learn stuff, also cannot give yourself that... Do things faster, more breaks. More cooperation, beneficial to you in the long run not me. I don't get paid. Yet I'm angry at you all all the time. Why? Cuz I care abt your progress. Simple

Why join taekwondo? What's your dream/aim in joining taekwondo? If you are here solely to interact, bond n makes frens, then I guess I find it better if I joined other CCAs. More fun, less of my torture.

If your dreams are to stand tall & proud, get medals, then you have to buck up and do better. Notice the difference when I've seen you do your best. (if I don't look your way often enough then try harder. I don't have preference over better people. It's just that they tend to wan me to teach them more) I don't go stingy on compliments. I certainly don't on scoldings. I just want all to try their "beyond" best. Cuz there is always another level higher than "the best".

Of course the key point isn't abt getting medals or stuff... but... let's face it. The Club has to report to the school. And the school dishes out budget. Give the school something nice to report to like results, and the Club will get budget. More budget = more money to do things, n stuff. Some want the jackets, others think lightly of it. I know I dun mind getting another. Hehe. Aww.. come on you tell me you dun wan? I, who help to train, feel that I have a responsibility to help the Club achieve such things. They are rewards of YOUR achievements. I don't reap the medals. You do.

Still there are some who thinks little of the medals too. To that, no problem. But you try managing the club. Results are necessary. Grading is an avenue to generate results. But grading isn't all. The advancement in belts is another way to reward the hard work and effort you put in. And we can only be as good as we teach. You need to do the labour.

To those whom feel I put them down constantly, especially people who want to train outside cuz "I don't let them take training", please listen: I teach things that are relevant to the development of sports taekwondo. And by that, I teach things that are taught as well in other clubs. I'm just more fierce as I want to be involved in their growth. And I'm but one man. So it's natural that I pay attention to those who wants me to teach. Scolding again is not by all means a solution, but I've done ,a few times, the soft approach. It just doesn't work. Trust me. I'm trying to seek a balance now. If I want to know how they've grown, I'll join their training. Not train outside. So please understand what I'm doing before you talk loads.

Lastly, long blog I know... But hey... this is the way to appease myself. I'm fustrated, depressed, sad over everything. What do I get every yr? Nope, not jackets. If can get then good. If nt? Nvm loh. I wish to see everyone being respected outside. "NP TKD ah?" And people will go ooo. Medals? I'm happy enuff to see one arnd your necks. =) It just shows I am doing something right. But first of all... Everyone has to chip in.

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