Tuesday, October 31, 2006

F%$#... My health is going down the drain cuz of assignments, and tkd... I'm gonna need to learn taking care of myself... Again...

8th Dec... Target deadline abt my decision. If things don't improve, then...

I better get going... Study whole day tml... cycling a while in the evenings... Hope it will be cool, no haze night.

I wish you would take care of yourself also. Don't get too caught up in projects and then dun sleep... Hard to do cuz I'm like you... haha~ =)

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 3:30 AM

Just got offline with Cuiling... Haiz... Comunication is an art unto science. It doesn't take one to master. It takes everyone to master it. If she ain't talking, something is wrong then ger... But you... can't just say you are nt bothered. Hmm... yah the rest I told you le. Just chill!

Training today was fun I guess. Well, some matters are keeping the club divided, but I guess it really takes everyone's effort to work things out. I'm not gonna put the blame on anyone. But then again, I guess everyone can do better than just talking crap in their own domains and their circles. Noone needs to understand my reasons for doing things. When I find a need to explain, I will. If not, try somewhere else if you ain't happy. I myself, am giving myself some time to see if I'm still needed. If not needed, then I shall disappear like the magicians' doves in The Prestige. I guess I can make myself useful @ otherplace else. And yep, I've gotten some requests le. =)

To NPTKD, other clubs (if anyone from other clubs sees this, forgive me, but I'm mainly adressing people from my club):

Some of my views about taekwondo. Taekwondo encompasses a lot of aspects, & what I am doing now is the sport aspect of it. I am naturally aggressive in my training methods, tillthe point of being "extreme" as some say. True. I scold a lot, but then I ask myself at nights why I do that. Everynight. Truth is, I can't help but see taekwondo in Singapore going down the drain. I'm not one to go soft, cuz I know the training I dish out, physically or otherwise, is to train everyone. Some are more immune to my scoldings. Good!

I just wish everyone would put in more effort in that 2 hours they are there. 2 hrs later, everyone is free to go home, eat or whatever crap you all want to do. Just 2 hrs of full attention, to learn stuff, also cannot give yourself that... Do things faster, more breaks. More cooperation, beneficial to you in the long run not me. I don't get paid. Yet I'm angry at you all all the time. Why? Cuz I care abt your progress. Simple

Why join taekwondo? What's your dream/aim in joining taekwondo? If you are here solely to interact, bond n makes frens, then I guess I find it better if I joined other CCAs. More fun, less of my torture.

If your dreams are to stand tall & proud, get medals, then you have to buck up and do better. Notice the difference when I've seen you do your best. (if I don't look your way often enough then try harder. I don't have preference over better people. It's just that they tend to wan me to teach them more) I don't go stingy on compliments. I certainly don't on scoldings. I just want all to try their "beyond" best. Cuz there is always another level higher than "the best".

Of course the key point isn't abt getting medals or stuff... but... let's face it. The Club has to report to the school. And the school dishes out budget. Give the school something nice to report to like results, and the Club will get budget. More budget = more money to do things, n stuff. Some want the jackets, others think lightly of it. I know I dun mind getting another. Hehe. Aww.. come on you tell me you dun wan? I, who help to train, feel that I have a responsibility to help the Club achieve such things. They are rewards of YOUR achievements. I don't reap the medals. You do.

Still there are some who thinks little of the medals too. To that, no problem. But you try managing the club. Results are necessary. Grading is an avenue to generate results. But grading isn't all. The advancement in belts is another way to reward the hard work and effort you put in. And we can only be as good as we teach. You need to do the labour.

To those whom feel I put them down constantly, especially people who want to train outside cuz "I don't let them take training", please listen: I teach things that are relevant to the development of sports taekwondo. And by that, I teach things that are taught as well in other clubs. I'm just more fierce as I want to be involved in their growth. And I'm but one man. So it's natural that I pay attention to those who wants me to teach. Scolding again is not by all means a solution, but I've done ,a few times, the soft approach. It just doesn't work. Trust me. I'm trying to seek a balance now. If I want to know how they've grown, I'll join their training. Not train outside. So please understand what I'm doing before you talk loads.

Lastly, long blog I know... But hey... this is the way to appease myself. I'm fustrated, depressed, sad over everything. What do I get every yr? Nope, not jackets. If can get then good. If nt? Nvm loh. I wish to see everyone being respected outside. "NP TKD ah?" And people will go ooo. Medals? I'm happy enuff to see one arnd your necks. =) It just shows I am doing something right. But first of all... Everyone has to chip in.

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 3:20 AM

Monday, October 30, 2006

Went to the job fair today. Wow. People Mountain People Sea. & most of them are there for the freebies nia... Dotz... Sent all my copies of resume. Think I printed abt 10 or so bah. Haha Yay~ will be contacted for a biomedical job in hosp. Thanks ah Jonathan. So immediate your reply!

Caught a guy taking pics up a lady's skirt. Kaoz... you are such a loser man... No technique one... No skill... Go home and wither man... And dun let me see you again. 1.65m, blond spikey hair, green polo tee n that god-awful bag. Seriously... blond? This is 2006 dude... black is in.

& the lady wasn't exactly appreciative also... Next time say THANK YOU to the person who helps you man... Not turn and carry on shopping for your cosmetics... Seriously, wear something nicer too. Salsa skirt with your face is just inviting trouble. And your face ain't exactly angel-like pretty hor... See oredi I wanna puke. Pls... Spare us guys. Not everyone sees dressing less as sexy. Not in your case. Even your butch friend looks better than ya.

What is defeat? Nothing but education, nothing but the first step to something better. --- Wendell Phillips

Thanks Angie for the Avocado Snow. Tell me the recipe so I can teach her then she can make for me too! Haha

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 1:40 AM

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Sometimes I just wished you would talk about it and not keep it to yourself... I'm seeing a younger version of myself when I look at you... Please...

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 2:30 AM

Friday, October 27, 2006

GO F#$% SPIDERS. PLEASE GO. AND DON'T COME BACK. I DON'T NEED SPIDER F#$%ERS

Stupid assignments...

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 2:55 AM

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Am I seeing things? Or is the world really mad?

I think it is mad.

I've never seen such... what's the word... I guess there isn't a word to describe the actions of one.
"Most disgusting" <--- first thought that came to mind.
"Retarded" <--- second thing that came to mind.
"Why should I care?" <--- third thing that came to mind.
"Steamboat time" <--- fourth thing that came to mind.
"Assignments & reports" <--- fifth thing that came to mind.

Such thoughts were simultaneously going on in my mind.

I think the world is mad. No my world though... That I'm sure... Cuz if you think I'm mad, think again. & when you do think, think of the consequences. Yah sure... you will be labelled as "thinking too much" but hey! It sure beats people who have no sense of common sense (much less brains) SO...please complain intelligently and think why we do things like that. Please. I don't have to teach "thinking processes 101" to you. You will be a retard if I have to.

Go figure...

Steamboat finally on~! I think I ate a lot of meat. Shit. Need to run... Need to run... But it's good. Damn worth the money. Went to Vivo again. & WHO THE HECK SAYS IT'S OPENED 24/7?! They seriously should drown in the pool of water. I shall upload the pic later to illustrate the point. Not much people around le lah! Bloody hell... Waste time sia. Went to Mt Faber. Ok just pass by nia... Wahaha nice view... What else ah? I think I wnt home first. Haha...

Good lord... Yuwei, can you please "yao zi" more properly? Ok grammar problem + structure problems. Haha but seriously can someone pls get him to pronounce words more properly & not mumble... Pls... Argh headache acting up again... Body pain also... Argh...

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 1:30 AM

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Argh... Another one of the intense & tiring day.

TODAY IS POOMSAE COACH COURSE (2ND DAN ABOVE) !

Retarded day... Was the first one to reach. Hmm... says a lot about the punctuality of people... Especially to those who dare make alot of noise... Mr Chin recognised me... not a good sign...
Throughout the course, everyone was either groaning audibly or in their minds. Nt that it helped that their faces were contorted most of the time. Why? WHY?! Simple... Cuz the patterns/poomsae changed sooooooooo much! Good lord... How to go advance to 3rd dan like that... Argh... One point to take note...

Steamboat was cancelled due to poor response... Wassup with you guys ah? Homesick or what! Haha kidding... Went to find mei mei @ her workplace. Ended up getting an Avocado Snow. Tasty ah! Thanks Joc for mixing that drink up. It's really good! I wish I could have it everyday. No sugar or less... a lil bit? Haha

No quotes tonight. Too tired to think. Vexed over studies, assignments, pests and someone special... =

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 11:30 PM

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Oh my... semi-productive day for me...

Went to eat fishball noodles again (everyone should try it! It's good!) then went to Odeon Towers MacDonald's to study. Whoa... When I arrived with Francis this was our reaction. Apparently, everyone had the same idea as us & decided to study there as well. -_-

Quite a few lookers (guys should know what I mean ah. hehe), but anyway that's nt what we are there for. Jinrong & Brandon came shortly, & we changed seats to these bunch of guys studying chemical thermodynamics. OMG... Zzz & to think we could have escaped anything involved with chem for a day... How wrong!

Did the reports for a while before heading off with Qihui (yay~ first bookout! Congrats!), Gladwin & Yuwei. Ass.. they decided nt to go prawning... Went to the Taman Jurong Pond to find loads of people there as well... oh yah the fishes there are huge. I think can feed a company with that 1 fish alone. Went to hunt for places to play BF2 but mostly all closed. Argh... Wassup Wassup. So much money dun wan to earn? Haha

Then went Vivo City. Freaking HUGE... Walk until leg pain. I'm already nt feeling well... & behold. Can't even get our bearings right. Saw Cuiling too with Mark & another guy. Gladwin met up with his friends later at Marina Sq & they decided to go watch midnight show. Me? Gotta rush assignment & I still have a pattern course the next day... Sigh...

Ambition is not a vice of little people. --- Michel de Montaigne

I quite like this quote. Very much. Go figure -END-

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 11:55 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

YAY FINALLY BIOCHEM TMA HANDED UP LE! GOOD LORD!

I spent so many sleepless nights on this bugger of assignment... Haha... good lord... look at me now... Zzzz Zzzz I need that... like now...



The time is here, and is rapidly approaching - William Field

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 2:59 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Hahaha HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CLARISSA!!! Hope you had a memorable party!

Well, nothing much today again... sent some resumes, nothing much that caught my fancy. Damn, wassup with the job markets nowadays? How come the unemployment rate is still so high with the Classified Ads so thick, & those online job databases filled with jobs... I never know...

Went out to eat fishball noodles again... Haha... yah in case noone's noticed that's my favourite noodles. Bought 2 lollipops similar to the one in Kung Fu Hustle. Who is it for anyway? *Shrugs*

Went NTU training after wrestling with assignments (they never end do they), arrived a lil wee bit late, but... NOONE STARTED ANYTHING YET! Whoa nelly... Shifu damn late le wor... Walked in to find Chen Peiqi sleeping on the matress for acrobatics... Huining lying arnd also... Soon came the rest of the majority... Ah... now I understand le. I'm looking at the players for the Asian University Games. Wow. No wonder the Sha Qi is like so strong lah.

Veronica came running and asking me to buy a ticket for the movie screening later in the night. Oh I forgot they were celebrating the belated Mooncake festivities. Haha I just chopped one ticket for later.

Training started.
Shawn used my shoulder & mock cry when we saw Poh Sze Chap do his split. What a piece of master artwork. He is perfect for training & sparring lah... Kaoz must be like him le...

Edmund took training and I partnered Huining. Was teaching her how to move even faster. Yay~ I finally can "react" when the whistle was blown... & I could hear the different beats as everyone else's instep-meets-handmitt sound went a tad slower than mine. BUT... thats only for right foot attacks... HAHAHA sian loh like that... I'm like right leg = good leg while left leg = stump used in pirate shows...

Nt bad nt bad... managed to realise how fast I can go... After that stayed arnd a bit to watch them spar. The rest? All siam to the bbq session le! Aiyoh... did some more kicks... kick kick kick...

BBQ was fun. Hahaha Seriously, it was a bit stale in the beginning lah... but things got going when they started to play that Jacky Wu classroom games. Damn farnie. Everyone was dunked with water. Good Lord thank goodness I do keep a low profile there... Muahaha...

Later we celebrated the b'days of Edmund & Clarissa... Clarissa ended up being the unluckiest being that day. Hahaha talk abt Friday the 13th... She got curry poured over her lah. Nick's gi pants didn't make it either. All thanks to Junming Sir's running. Whoosh & he's off le~

Ended up in a cab with Nick, Ashlyn, William, Marissa & who else ah? Can't rem... I of course sat in front... me being the biggest size with Nick next in line. Haha! Gave Marissa her lollipop but forgot to give to Ashlyn. Liewz...

Every science begins as philosophy and ends as art - Wil Durant

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 2:30 AM

Friday, October 13, 2006

Ooo... today is one of the worst days of my life. Ah... today being the Thursday since it's officially Friday... Sigh... Friday the 13th... AGAIN!

I've never seen much contempt for trainings before... Infuriating... Who the hell do they think they are? Are you some son or daughter of some dignitary? Someone important? Someone experienced? Good lord... you people certainly talk a lot for someone who has far less experience than me... If everyone finds that there is a better way to train other than do the stuff we give & take the constant scoldings, go reflect.

Why am I scolding & Gladwin saying those things? We work like a pair. Angel & Devil. Obvious who took which character... You peeps can't seem to drill it in your head that all these are for your own good. Ok granted the scolding was a bit unnecesary but still...

Targets? Aims? Dreams? Motivation factor? I don't think the youngsters really know what those are nowadays... I'm not about to generalize, just that I haven't met enough people who have aims in their lives and actually work towards it. Really. TKD wise it's worse. I've travelled to trainings conducted by other masters, & frankly, it's not the masters... It's the thinking & attitudes of the students & trainees. Sigh. Hand over the club to them? Well...

Gladwin mentioned that he didn't want to take class anymore. Seeing how things turn out I guess we could use a long break. Let them see how difficult it is to run a training session with their progress in mind. if they think they have a better idea, pls do carry on. I can't stand it anymore. This is depressing.

Btw, went to Hong Kong Cafe off East Coast area. Not too bad. But I spent a bomb there... Order too much... The tea was friggin sweet lah! Haha Thanks Gladwin for driving me there. Appreciate it that you decided to travel to the east on your own accord. Haha

2nd Btw, THE BLOODY ST PAT'S SCHOOL STATUE MOVED SINCE I LAST SAW IT!!! GOOD LORD!

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 2:05 AM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Yay... arms felt better le. Biochem tutorial was a lifesaver! Finally some hints to the TMA... Last Biochem TMA... must pia le...

Decided to include quotes wherever possible to let myself reflect on it. What can I learn to make my world a better world? What else can people learn from me, or me from the people? I wonder...

I see and approve better things, but follow worse - Ovid

That I do too... That I do.

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 1:10 AM

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Good lord... Arms felt like they have been ripped off... Still have TMA to complete... Stupid Biophysics... Why can't it be any easier?! Argh... 2 mths to exams le...

Just basically did my TMA for today... research & ask friends how to do... Noone seems to know... Oh my...

Night classes was still ok just now, was damn famished nia...

No race can prosper till it learns that there is as much dignity in tilling a field as in writing a poem - Booker T Washington

I find the above quote meaningful... Everyone should learn from it. EVERYONE...

To generalize is to be an idiot - William Blake

Why do you think I target individuals so much... hahahaha!

Okie... till tomorrow... Or whenever I'm free...

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 10:55 PM

Monday, October 09, 2006

Ahhh... interesting day today. Decided to forego that damn TMA... bugger... Went Cable skii with Natalie & Sherlyn, with Henry & gang joining us later. Damn Nicole... Didnt come... pang seh nevermind, still held onto the coupons sia... Made Nat wait at JE MRT... In the end I was the earliest. Dotz...

Played 2 hours with the guys while Nat & Sher only did 1 hour. Met this cute chick trying out her new bindings. Damn... I'm so ashamed to talk to her sia. Kept falling down lah! Argh... Nvm my mind originally shldn't be thinking abt her anyway... Haha Arms damn painful... & I hit my face with the darn double skis... Ass

After that, unicycled to BBQ pit to find them. Kaoz... Maybe I'm too late... but nt much food left there man... Argh... Peng ang some stuff then I went unicycling for a while while some of them walked to the Mac toilet & 7-11. Eeeee... ANGIE CAN'T HOLD HER LIQUOR! HAHAHAHA

Left for home with Gladwin & Yuwei... @ abt 1130+

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 11:55 PM

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Grading day for black belts: I DID NOT GO~~~ Nah... went to meet the guys to study & finish the Biophysics TMA... Stumping the whole tut class le. Panic mode -ON-. Shifting to Amber Alert sia... Haha we studied there so long they only managed to solve 2 qns. & I was so helpless there. Cuz I totally dun understand what happened or is happening. Why got V here Q there? Why need to use Bernoulli's Eqn? Who the heck asked him to come up with that equation!? Retarded lah!

Went to grandma's b'day party after that. As usual... Boring. Usual questions like "Eh how come never bring your gf?" "When you getting one?" "Why you slimmed down so much?"... Spare me man... I just napped right till the moment they sang Happy B'day. & They didnt wake me up lah! Kaoz... haze hits highest record~

yOU aRE iN mY wORLD @ 10:50 PM